Just another hormonal post.

I used to be that kind of girl. That kind of girl that will cry in front of everyone whenever she is upset or sad,  laugh happily whenever she receives a text from her crush, that brave girl with all the courage in the world to approach her crush and strike up a conversation first, the girl who is not afraid of any kind of rejection from her crush, that girl with her innermost emotions and thoughts written all over her face, that trusting girl who can tell anyone about her secret anytime, anywhere. But now, I admit it, I became a coward after the last painful experience. I learnt to hide my feelings from anyone and everyone I don't trust enough. If you know me well enough, you will know that once I have fallen in love with someone, I tend to fall very deeply and people call me the insanely in love girl. I observe him, his behaviour around me and other girls, I stare at him, I talk to him whenever I get my chance, I think of him every single day. Okay, that sounds way creepy but I guess everyone who is in love does that, right? RIGHT? Okay, maybe it's just me, but yea, like I told you, I'm a crazy girl when I'm in love. But now, it's different. I don't know what went wrong and I don't know why I have changed. When he is near, inside of me, I'm squealing but outwardly, I act completely normal as if he means nothing to me. If this happens to me like one year ago, I will be smiling like an idiot in front of him. If he is nearby, I would walk to him and talk to him like we are long lost friends. But now, I would just walk straight past the person and pretend like I do not know him. I'll be very friendly to him on certain days and I will just ignore him when I feel like it. This is a bad habit that I tried very hard to break but too bad, now I'm that kind of girl that will wait for him to approach me first. I admit it, it was very devastating to know that he has a girl on his mind now, but is it bad or stupid that I still feel like trying? I mean, from my point of view, it's better to try and get the answer I need for closure rather than constantly guessing all the time then losing the chance to do something about it and regret it in the future. Genie asked me that day, whether my liking towards him has something to do with peer pressure because he don't seems like my type of guy. Well, maybe. But the truth is, I'm in it so deep that I don't even care whether it's peer pressure anymore. I'm surprised by my own thoughts though. I never thought that I will like him that much.

Stop trying and move on without knowing the answer? Not my style.
Continue trying and get the answer I want even though it will break my heart? Yes, my type of thing but not now. I will wait for the time when I feel like everything is in the right place.

Well, that concludes my post. I'm sorry for bothering you people with my stupid ranting post. Forgive me for my raging teenage hormones. The need to rant about love and all those useless stuff when I have more important things to think about.

Random opinion on music and movie

I'm on a mission. An impossible mission. A mission to revive my near death blog. I mean, sorry peeps ( given that there are actually people out there who is willing to read my freakingly boring blog and they are actually following me ) It's not that I don't want to update my blog more frequently, it's just that my ideas, though there is a lot of them and some are pretty amazing ( I'm not afraid to admit this!) but whenever I sign into my blog, the ideas, the amazing one, just disappear into thin air and there is nothing that I can do to bring them back. If you are reading, you must be wondering why am I constantly blabbering about something and everything. Well, it's because I don't have anything to blog about, that's just how sad my life is. Hmmmm...maybe there is something I can blog about. I just got an idea after scrolling through my Facebook page. It's about Epic. You know EPIC? The movie? Not the word EPIC? Okay, I'm confusing you. Well, if you get it, here is what I'm going to say. That movie? It's amazing. The animation, the voice dubbing, the pace of the movie, the plot, the character, even the soundtrack, man, they KICK ASS. I admit it, when Queen Tara died, I was about to burst into tears but then when I turned to the left and to the right, my friends  were sitting there and watching the movie calmly and I sort of gulped in my own tears. I knew that If I started crying, I will be weeping throughout the show. Anyway, Nod is an amazing character and is it weird that I have this teeny tiny little crush on this cartoon character? Anyway, he is not the first cartoon character that I had a crush on. ( Remember Jack Frost, Rise of The Guardians, well, he is the first ). Not going to talk about Mary Katherine ( MK ) though, she annoyed me to the extent that I feel like shouting at the screen though in the end, her character performed well enough to save her own ass from my mad shouting. Another reason you should totally catch this movie? The beauty of the relationship between Ronin and Queen Tara. Though they didn't elaborate much on them, the few dialogues and scenes between them is enough to break my heart when Queen Tara died in Ronin's arms and that's about it. I'm running out of ideas again. Anyway, I'll just end the post with THIS

They are my newest obsession, The Head and The Heart. My love. You should totally check them out. This song, Rivers and Roads was used in TV Series ''Chuck'' Series Finale and How I Met Your Mother.

P.S: Sorry for any grammatical error. My grammar suck.

List of Taiwanese Drama to watch while I can (必看的台湾偶像剧)

1. Happy 300 Days （遇见幸福300天）
2. Substitute Princess/ King Flower （金大花的华丽冒险）
3. The Queen of S.O.P （胜女的代价）
4. In Time With You （我可能不会爱你）

No 1 and 2 is still airing in Taiwan and I hope the ending will be the kind of ending I hope for. Especially Substitute Princess/ King Flower. I want the female lead to be with Chris Wu's character Terry. Terry is the perfect kind of male lead, while James Wen's character makes me scream. I don't know! I just don't like him after his performance in The Fierce Wife as the cheating and hateful husband. Okay, it's not like it's his fault that he acted so well in that show but yea, his performance as Lin Guan Jun in King Flower is not what you called lovable. Chris Wu on the other hand, is what you called lucky. His role as Hua Tuo Ye in Autumn Concerto is very very good. Though Vanness Wu role as Ren Guang Xi is seriously very sexy but yea, my heart just breaks for the second male lead Hua Tuo Ye which is Chris Wu. So yea, back to the topic, I want Da Hua to be with Terry. He deserves her after what he's been through. 

Happy 300 Days. I just couldn't wait for Ya Ting to give birth to Xing Fu ( Happiness ). I want Kingone's character Qi Tian to be her husband and the father to Xing Fu. The show is fairly amusing and comical in it's traditional taiwan way of humour. Kingone's character Qi Tian is selfish, self centered and a neat freak but his character has an untold past regarding his past relationship with famous interior designer Xu Xin Ping.The actor acting as Ding Ding ( I don't know what's his name ), all I can say is good job. He did a very good job at portraying a sad and lonely doctor who blame himself for the death of his patient Jie Er on the operation table. Kun Da's character as Zhang Yao Yang, a timid and kind hearted gangster. He serves as a comic relief for this show. I just love the way this drama shows how all these character overcome their fear. The only bad thing about this show, it airs every Friday. ONLY. Meaning I only have one episode to watch every Saturday. Which is making me crazy.

While for No 3 and 4, I watched bits and parts of both show with either my friend or my sister. S.O.P queen seems like the typical kind of China Taiwan collaboration show. It's filled with the sad heartbreaking moment and evil second female lead with a powerful company and a sadistic Daddy to back her up. One good thing from S.O.P queen ( from those bits and parts I watched ), Tom ( Tang Jun ) is quite the charmer as the male lead. Cute personality?! That's what I look for in male leads. While Godfrey Gao is still as handsome as ever in the show, the eye candy in the show. Kaka.

In time with you. I don't know what to say about this show. Because I have no idea what is it about. But I'm determined to finish this show because apparently it's a hit in Taiwan and my friend keep pushing me to watch it. So I'll watch it but to be honest, the storyline is a so-so for me. I'm being honest, this show is not on top of my must watch list. So I guess I'll watch this show after finishing with Happy 300 days, King Flower. As for S.O.P Queen, I think I will skip it here and there.

Okay, enough with my rambling. Time to catch up with King Flower. Chris Wu, here I come. Woohooooo!!!

Perfect Boy

The perfect kind of boyfriend. I doubt that there is going to be one, maybe close but not perfect. The list goes on and on for a boyfriend aiming to be a perfect boyfriend to his girl: Ways to act in front of her girl friends, ways to act in the public, ways to impress her parents, ways to make her feel special, etc . Maybe you will argue with me, something about true love and that when you find it, everything about him is perfect. Yea, I agree. Me, myself, I've been in love a few times and trust me, It didn't end well. Maybe it's my luck or whatever. Okay, back to the topic. I got the idea for this blog post by watching this Taiwanese Drama about a guy who underwent surgery to become skinny and good looking to win the heart of the love of his life or so he thinks. But you know, he ended up falling in love with his plastic surgeon. So I was thinking, is there some special kind of attribute in a guy that could easily attract girls? If there is, what is it? Being bad? Being sexy? Or is it the physical appearance that counts? Well, I don't know but I sure can list out a list of things I find attractive on a boy or a man that makes him the perfect guy in my heart.

Physical appearance

1. Tall?! ( Well, he have to be at least 10 cm taller than me, I mean for god sake, I'm only 159 cm, I'm so short. HAHA )

2. Arm muscles! ( I'm really particular about this, something really attractive about it. :) )

Qualities

1. He must have a good sense of humour. It's even better if he laugh at my lamest joke. That would make me feel good. 

2. He must not be possessive. Chilling out with friend, NO. Going shopping, NO. Taking out the trash, NO. God, how bored and suffocating will that life be?

3. Compliment me. I mean, not that he have to praise me everytime I throw a new dress on or I got a new haircut, but at least compliment me when I'm fishing for it using sentences like How do I look? Pretty? Stunning? 

4. He must be an animal lover. He must accept how important Dot Dot is, in my heart.

5. Respect my privacy. He can't go through my personal stuff. 

6. Willing to be cuddle by me. I'm the cuddling sort of person so he must have enough patience to stand with my constant request for cuddling. :D

7. Willing to watch cartoon and rom-com with me. I'm a big fan of both! <3 font="">

8. Fashion sense. Or if he does not have one or any, let me dress him up. I mean, as in picking out his clothes when we are going out. Either that or I can go shop for his clothes in the mall.

And that concludes most of the things I think should appear on a perfect boyfriend. But this is not every girl/woman wants. Ha. I mean for single and never been in a relationship girl to comment on this is really ridiculous but hey, I was just stating my opinion. Freedom of speech, eh? For you out there, still searching for the right one, well, I'm in the group. While for you people who found one that has all the things I just list and more good quality that you lose count on your fingers, well, don't ever let him go. If your guy don't have the above quality, WELL, as long as he loves, protects, care and treats you well then stay with him. That's all that counts. 

Keep people in your life who truly love you, motivate you, encourage you, enhance you, and make you happy.  If you know people who do none of these things, let them go.