LIfe-death

Been listening to Sam Tsui cover of If I die young by band perry, totally addicted to it. It's a great song.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4W-KiYsWOeg

If I die young bury me in satin

Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song 

The lyrics is beautiful right?

I'm kind of wondering what will be like when I'm gone, gone forever, not even a trace of me could be found anymore. I know people will probably say I'm too young to talk about death, but you never know, life is unpredictable, something could always happen, and *poof* I'm gone. I don't really believe in life after death, does that mean when I'm gone, everything of me vanishes? Gosh, this topic must be very depressing. If you feel uncomfortable with this topic, you could always scroll down. =)

     I always wonder, when I'm near my deathbed when I'm old, would I be filled with love and serenity? Or regret and hatred for a wish that didn't come true? I hope I am the one that is filled with love and serenity. What would I think about before I take my last breath? A childhood friend? A best friend that I haven't see since graduation? My beloved family? I think I would think of all of those things above, reminiscing my past, regretting some of the decision I made, but happy with most of the decision. I don't want to be one of those old people who get sent into the old folk's home just because their child can't take it, living with a old nagging lady. I want a non-violent, painless death when my times come. I want my family to smile when I'm gone, I want them to think that I have gone to somewhere nice where I'll be there waiting for them. Just like the song, I want to be lay on satin and a bed of roses.I want my ashes to be scattered into the sea, back to nature, back to the arm to where I first came from. Mother Nature.
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Yea, I guess that's all for my blog this time, I just want to talk about my opinion on death this topic. Yea, it's a depressing subject but it's an unavoidable process in life, everyone has to die, It's just a matter of time. So, live life, no regrets, do the things you want to do now, before it's too late. =)